But I am in a strait betwixt the two, having the desire to depart and be with Christ; for it is very far better:

I am torn between the two. I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is far better indeed.

for I am pressed by the two, having the desire to depart, and to be with Christ, for it is far better,

But I am pressed by both, having the desire for departure and being with Christ, [for] [it is] very much better,